Oct 7, 2009

thoughts and musings

I'm disgruntled...
(not really...just more grumbling)...
that I can't get my blogging consistency back.
at the Tigers.
at the fact that it's late and I'm tired, yet I can't quite go to sleep.
at the biblical myths that well intentioned people pass on to people in need of comfort, and truth.
at peoples priorities.
at my priorities.
at neverending unhealthy cycles that I see loved ones go through again and again.

I'm more and more hopeful
because I'm becoming more and more aware of God's AMAZING love for me.
for our community.
that people are getting it.
that the Tigers will continuously be a competitive team and not a bottom of the standings team.
that God works even when I think he's not.
that I can get the song 'Single Ladis' out of my head for more than 12 hours.
that the best is yet to come.

Oct 2, 2009

Single Ladies Countdown #2

The SNL version with Andy Samberg, and Justin Timberlake brought tears to my eyes the first time...partly because it was so funny, and partly because it was so painful.


OK....the embed function is disabled on this one, so you'll have to click here to check it out.


Ring on It Countdown #3

I found this one thanks to B-Grizz from perhaps one of my new favorite bands...Pomplamoose. They make this crazy awesome music...video music. They use some unique sounds and the gal has a hauntingly beautiful voice. Well they do a pretty cool version of Single Ladies. Not necessarily funny...just awesome.

Seriously...what's wrong with me...why can't I get this song out of my head.


Ring on It Countdown #4

ok...for whatever reason, I've had Beyonce's 'Ring on It' stuck on my head for the past 2 weeks. So I present to you my top 4 countdown videos for this song...trust me...1-3 are AWESOME!

Tonight, I present to you...#5

Sep 1, 2009

Nonsense just because

2 things I love...baseball and silliness and people who don't take themselves too seriously...and counting...

this is what happens with a bunch of college baseball players and HOURS of a rain delay and a stadium song selector who knows how to play-along...

Aug 31, 2009

XXXchurch Authors Attempt To Attend Westboro Church Service



I've always dug the ministry of xxxchurch.com, a ministry that helps those that struggle with porn. Recently they started a book tour, and they launched their tour at what surely would've been the toughest place for me to go...the UBER-CONSERVATIVE Westboro Baptist Church in Kansas. Their...(I HATE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS; thanks anonymous)...They're the ones who picket soldiers funerals picketing with signs like, 'God hates Fags', and spew awful hate-mongering words like that.

Interesting clip


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Aug 21, 2009

Trusting vs. Depending

So a few years ago at a YS conference, I heard Marko quote an African friend of his, after experiencing worship at a church on one of his visits to Africa, and he asked the question (I'm LOOSELY quoting), 'Why does your faith here in Africa seem so much stronger, than what many people experience back in the states?', and his friend said, 'Marko, in America you believe in God, but here in Africa, we DEPEND on God.'

I don't know about you, but when I think of Africa, I have usually had thoughts of beauty and wonder, but usually overwhelmed by the mental images of commercials I saw all growing up- of children with distended stomachs, crying babies, moms looking hopeless.

Sure, I know that's the case for many there (although truth be told, I didn't see many distended stomachs...and I see plenty of crying babies here, and there's certainly different levels of hopelessness), one of the biggest takeaways that I have come away with from my experience in Swaziland was the idea that serving and giving and missions and whatever word for action you want there is probably always a relationship of reciprocity. Just as much as we may be able to serve our friends, or give to them, they are able to give to us.

Whether it's through teaching us...whether it's through a smile through hardships, whether it's a simple gesture. I'm tired though of just 'believing in God' or 'trusting in God'...to me, after experiencing what my friends have...I truly desire to DEPEND on God.

That's taking an ever-evolving shape in my life. I'm pretty sure God's still hammering that definition out in my life...but I'm pretty sure it's gonna' start with the small things...and it may naturally flow in and out, and weave from small things to big things. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe it'll start with the big things. I don't know. I do know that I truly desire to DEPEND on God. A book several years ago that I read and enjoyed had the bi-line, 'How the culture-controlled church has neutered the Gospel'. WOW. I always thought that was severe, but maybe that's what we've done here.

Dependence. Nothing short will do. These are a people who only know how to depend...and know no other way. (sure...just like here, that's not collectively, all true...but it's true with many who stand out in my head after our lives intertwined).

Dependence.

Aug 16, 2009

Africa thoughts


So it's been nearly a month. July 19th, I arrived back to the states with a whole new perspective of the land that we live in. A perspective that is widened only after engaging through the lens of nearly 9,000 miles away.

We've all heard it before right? The stories of people returning from impoverished lands, war-torn areas, disaster sites. Lives that are changed forever. But somehow as the listener to many of those stories, I've been moved before, but often times I raise my hands and wonder how can I respond to a story like that? That was THAT INDIVIDUAL'S experience, and can I truly understand something like that WITHOUT the experience? Truth is, I don't think so.

So with that in mind, I hesitate sharing some of my experiences, because I think story is the central piece to our lives, the narrative that we're all drawn to, but stories that don't cause action...well they're nice and all, but when you experience and encounter some of the things that the story-tellers have encountered...well nice stories just don't cut it.

Please know that as I sit here writing, I pause about ever 40 seconds. Wondering...a)Phil, does that really make any sense? b)just tell the story and quit being so dramatic c)will people really move to action...OF ANY SORT? Will I really move to action???

So I'm going to endeavor this week, to allow some of my experience in Africa to begin to unfold here on the blog. I commit to at least 3 different entries recalling some of the experience...my prayer is that the stories of my new friends will be shared; Will be told; Will speak to you in some way that they spoke to me. I'll share some pictures that I took.

This is my buddy Dean. Dean lives at the childrens home at El Shaddai. Understand El Shaddai is up in the mountains. Understand it's the winter there. Yeah, I know, you thought like I did...that doesn't count as a winter there...it'll be warm. And it was. For the most part. Although we happened to be there on the chilly days. Seriously. I was in Africa and it was like low 50's. Not the Africa I imagined.
Dean came up to me one late afternoon...our first day there actually, and simply grabbed my hand. Not aggressively. Not playfully. Like my daughter, when she just wants to be held. When she just wants to know that I'm there. He just held my hand, and shivered gently, as this was a little too cold for his little body. I looked down to see this little guy just seeking some warmth, put my arm around him, and just rubbed his back, trying to generate a little friction against his worn hoodie sweatshirt. He wouldn't talk. I don't think it was because he was shy at the time. Just cold. You know that cold...it's the one, where, you'd rather not talk, because that will let some warmth sneak out of you.

I showed him how we roll in Michigan...'Dean, cup your hands like this, and breathe in them, and the breath will feel warm against your face.' He liked our little North America trick.

The next couple of days, we hung out some more...played soccer (a lot)...laughed...ran.

Dean...like a lot of my new friends, isn't a poster-child. He's not a sad case. He's not a cause for pity. He's a cause for action. Dean is like my son. Like my daughters. He is loved. He is wonderfully created. He has a Savior who died on a cross so that he may have life eternal and to the full.

Right now. Pray for my friend Dean. Not because something terrible's about to happen (really the atrocities of being a child without parents has happened already). Pray for Dean to hear God and how God wants to use him. Pray that God would use Dean to help Swaziland grow and develop. And pray that Dean would fall in love with the God who first loved him.





Aug 9, 2009

Here are My Hands...

You need to take 6 minutes, right now, and check out this STRONG piece that Blaine and Aaron made a few weeks back.  Just be still and watch...

http://www.willowcreek.org/mediaplayer/playeropener.aspx?id=147&cid=3

Aug 1, 2009

one blog per month...

ok...I'm aware of my lacking ratios.  I shall work to change that.  Next up...a blog on the life-changing Africa experience that I returned from 2 weeks ago.  I'm thinking my processing is well under way...MAYBE some of my thoughts MIGHT make sense at this point, but I'm not fully sure.  We'll see.  Stay tuned.